News of some sort awaits me

I've received a lot of emails and letters throughout my 25 years of life, but never have I been as excited to receive them as I am right now. I check my email at a ridiculous level of frequency. When I see that my I've got a new email, my heart jumps with anticipation (just a little bit). Already, five law schools have received my application and are going through the acceptance/rejecting process. The truth is that I'm going to find out the results of all these applications within a few months, so I probably shouldn't let it occupy my mental faculties. But you'll have to understand that my mind doesn't think logically like that. I like to know for myself the results of my performance whether it be fortunate or unfortunate. When I go bowling, and it looks like the ball is going gutter, I still keep my eyes fastened on the ball until it whizzes by all the pins. In college I would check Route Y on a daily basis after finals were over to see if new grades had been submitted. I would like to someday go to a psychotherapist and have her sit down with me and explain why I do certain things. I feel it would be interesting to probe somewhat into what makes me, me. I heard that some medical insurances cover such therapy. In the meantime, I'm going to keep on checking my email and mail for some sort of noteworthy news.